Done!

I am finished. Finally finished. El fin. No more. Done. With student teaching! Caloo calay, no work today. I finished with grading and am done. Free at last, free at last. It is such a wonderful feeling. This has been a rough semester, but I am now done and I do not have finals. I think that I will sub during finals, however, as there isn't anything much else to do.

I will be working in the library for an hour and a half today. I have not worked a regular shift in ever. Especially not during a week day.

Steve was nice and let me eat lunch today even though he had already put my sack lunch through. He understood.

It's kind of weird not being in on the finals frenzy. Everyone is stressed and burned out and I am winding down and rejuvenating. I do not feel guilty though. I have had enough stress during the semester to make up for it.

And a window opens

I am now at liberty to share my news. I have a job for next year at the college library here, so I will be here another year, but as staff, not a fifth year. Will be full-time staff and working on special collections. This semester has shown me that I want to be a librarian, but now I am unsure what type. I do not really think that there is a future in school librarianing. They are cutting and reducing programs rather than adding them. Budgets and such. So, this experience will be so good in helping me decide what it is that I want to do and what the Lord wants me to do. This semester has been quite difficult, and the Lord shut a major door in my life (grad school). However, I am so glad that He did. He has blessed me, and I do not deserve it. It almost brings me to tears to see how He has worked and how He has blessed me. And, the difficult times have served to make this opportunity even more amazing and sweet and blessingful. It is so hard to wait and so easy to doubt and worry. But now I feel so foolish and humble.

I look back and remember wanting to be in this community longer. I remember saying that I felt like I was really connecting with people from church and then I would have to leave. Now I don't have to. I am looking forward to being more involved at church. I need to pray about what the Lord wants me to be involved in, though, or I may choose the wrong thing.

Blessings in Christ.

God is so Good

Oh ye of little, little faith. Patience is so hard, but it is worth it. The Lord has been so good to me. Why did I ever doubt? Why did I ever worry? Sometimes He is hidden, but that is not an excuse to sin by worrying or complaining. Yesterday's sermon was so applicable, and I had some peace, and today I have peace. He is so good. That should never surprise me.

Kick in the Pants

Time management and organization have never been my forte. And now they need to be. I need to work hard and get in gear. Why is this so difficult? It is easy to glorify challenges and hard work. But it is just that: hard work. Not fun. Discipline in any area is neither easy or fun, but it (hopefully) bears fruit, good, juicy, dribble down the chin kind of fruit.

Life does not always go according to plan. However, I know that God has an adventure in store for me. Hopefully it's a pleasant adventure, but whatever it is, it is His will and His best.

Discipline means that God loves us. If He didn't love us, then He would let us do whatever we want and never correct our faults.

Peace

It has been so very peaceful here. It has been so nice to be home and away from everything. Home truly is a haven right now. Having nothing to do (except grading of course. Essays take a long time to grade. whew)

I love being able to wear cool outfits or comfortable outfits. Clothes that I cannot wear to school. Spring is coming. Seeping, peeking, poking. Springing.

Life is such a mix. A weird mix, usually. Good and bad and stress and peace and exuberance and mellowness and depression and giddiness and everything. Usually not in one day. But sometimes some of them.

Spring break is always hard to come back from. I kept thinking all day that it was Friday when it was really Thursday. Yes, I am writing this late at night. Yes, I should probably be in bed. Yes, my clock is on Eastern time.