Standing Under a Waterfall of Possibilities and Getting Drenched

There are so many things that I need to do/deadlines coming up. Things are starting to fall into place and I'm starting to make decisions, but I am still feeling overwhelmed. I don't like all the uncertainty. At least I now know that I'm going to stay in the area this summer. I got the internship I wanted! And, contrary to what I've been saying, I'm going to do the sane thing and take it for credit. I also plan on taking the EAD workshop, but it's only 1.5 credits, and with the internship, workshop, and work, I'll be plenty busy. I have also decided that I really want to go to the RBMS preconference this summer in Philadelphia. RBMS is the rare books section of ALA. Hopefully I can get a scholarship to go, but I'm going to try to go anyway. I don't think I'm going to go to the main ALA conference. I am also applying for a scholarship to go to another conference which is in San Francisco, but that one will be determined by whether or not I get the scholarship. Now, I just have papers and scholarship deadlines coming due soon. I have changed my rare books paper topic to something that I am pretty passionate about right now, so that is good. I would ultimately like to have it published, but it remains to be seen if it will be any good or worth publishing.

Sorry, I know the above paragraph is full of library jargon. But, that's pretty all consuming right now. There are so many decisions that I have to make. I'm trying not to worry and to trust that the Lord will open and close doors as He sees fit. I'm also slightly worried about the career path I have chosen to pursue. I want to work with special collections, specifically with objects or "realia," so I'm pursuing that. I'm not sure if there is any hope or possibilities for me in this path, but I need to focus on and pursue something, so I am pursuing this, and I hope that if it is not what the Lord has for me, He shows me and directs me toward what He wants. I kind of feel that this is His will though, as it is the path that He led me to, away from my original desire to be a school media specialist.

School is getting better, now that I have a purpose. It really helps to have something to work toward.

I cannot wait for spring break, but I have a lot to do during it, including a deadline tomorrow, and 2 deadlines for Monday. Then another next Friday. Augh! Oh well. It will get done. It always does.

Also, I saw some guys outside today with a "free hugs" sign. Though I like the concept of this movement, and appreciate hugs myself, I did not take advantage of it, as the concept of hugging complete strangers is rather intimidating.